waste...

I'm such a waste...

And its pretty hard on me to have m telling it, about like I'm not as stupid as I may seem, I kinda got it right.... 

I know Im wasting everything. 

Money, time, ppl... 

Mostly my brain, he hadnt thought seriously since I left myself lost in some shaddy place... 

I wonder how am I doing, after all....

I still love m, though, I dont think this'll last 4evr. 

And not even admiting it will change it, I also know it already.

I'm such a waste, not only I'm in the best university in the best career, and have nothing to complain at all- nothing like 'Im poor' 'I have noone to talk to' 'Nobody cares for me'... and idiotic ths like those, I have nothing. 

But I'm pretty very good at wasting. 

At losing.

At zoombing xD

I ....

May I kill  myself, when the time comes by?